You know, sometimes, I really don't like myself.
I just wonder what I'm doing with my lifee at certain moments in time.

Like today, French conversation teacher gave me back my introduction (which I thought was quite good actually) and basically told me it was rubbish. And then we proceeded to go through it, picking out what went wrong. And for some reason, I don't really know why, I just zoned out, shut down and was just mmming and giving monotonous, monosyllabic answers. After the lesson, I thought about what I did and I was like, why the heck did I do that? Just because she was pretty much boyin me, why did I have to tune out? I should have taken it like a man. And been a good student. Learned from my mistakes. I'm sure if I'd seen this in someone else, I would have been critical of it. I was doing stupidness before the lesson, joking and laughing as well and then suddenly, shtum.
I confused myself.
I often confuse myself. I never really know what's going in my head,
or why I do things that I do?
It's kind of worrying really.

I think I should spend some time with myself. I do spend a lot of time with myself already though. And I think a lot. Perhaps I think too much.

I'll tell you what I really think..that no-onnee cares about this ha.
I just had to get it out of my system.

PS. I actually hate watching reality tv shows with my dad. He really thinks he knows everything. Oh gosh. On the verge of bussin a switch. But I won't.